Chapter Ten

Chapter ten begins by talking about how Josh started to acquaint himself with a drug dealer named Pete. Hamilton would go himself or send someone to pick up the cocaine just about every day from Pete's house. Most of the time, Josh would get small amounts of cocaine at a time so it wouldn't be so noticeable to people. Also, Josh would often overpay Pete for the cocaine so that he would like him better.

Josh would always try to hide his drugs from his parents, and he was worried that they may find out his secret. However, one day his parents showed up at his front door, and they were not alone. When Josh opened the door, there were two DEA agents standing beside his parents. The agents told Josh that they had been watching him, and that if they wanted to, they could do a drug bust at his house. However, they weren't after Josh. They were trying to get Pete in order to get to a drug dealer above him. The agents had Josh keep his routine of going to Pete's house, but now he was wearing a wire so the agents could hear what was going on in the house.

Josh decided to give drug rehab another try, but this time he went to Turning Point in Tampa, Florida. There were some points where he really had a lot of problems that angered him. In September of 2003, Josh decided to blow his drug test off which is the same as failing a drug test. He was given a sixty day game suspension. Josh made a decision to have a talk with his former girlfriend's father who was a former drug addict himself. He wanted to get the perspective of someone who knew how he felt and could give him advice. The talk made Josh think a little bit differently, and it helped him somewhat.

However, despite the talk, Josh continued to use drugs, and it was not long before he was suspended from baseball for a year for failing another drug test. This was important because one more suspension would mean a lifetime ban from professional baseball. During his suspension, he lived in a halfway house for his drug rehab, and he had to get a job. He chose a job at a batting cage/baseball school facility. He liked to work with the kids there, and he found it pretty amusing. However, even after staying sober for a couple of months, he never believed that he would be able to keep it up.